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Name: Elaine
Location: Singapore, Singapore
Birthday: 4/3/1992
Gender: Female
Interests: Ambivalence & Ambiguity, Baking, Brownies, Chocolate, Colours, Grey's Anatomy, Heffalump, Ice Cream, Literature, Movies, Muuuusic, One Tree Hill, Piglet, Photography, Poetry, Photoshop, Sketches, TheDailyScoop.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
1/16/2006
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| Peyton: Can we be friends again?
Brooke: Sure.
Peyton: Like before?
Brooke: I don't think so, like before is gone. | | |
| Violet: Maybe you and Sheldon are right. Maybe I don’t know how to
be happy. For a long time I’ve been at baseline, alive, breathing,
heart beating. Happy just seemed very, far away. And that was the best I could do.
But, I’m having a baby, Pete. I’m making a person, which is a really
optimistic thing to do and is that is really happy, which scares me a
lot. The point is, maybe I don’t know how to be happy. But I wanna
learn, I wanna be happy Pete. And you, you so often make me happy. So I know that I said no, but if you were still willing to fight for me then I am willing to be fought for. Except it wouldn’t be much of a fight ‘cause you’d win.
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| Millicent: Hi my name is Millicent and I'm new here, and, I don't really know what to say but I keep telling everybody I'm fine and, I'm not fine.
OTH 7.16
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Hate weekends so much sometimes. So tired, it's only 8.17pm but feel so dead. I really feel like I can't be bothered with work even after my shit grades and maybe I'm just too tired from the lack of sleep cause I'm growing old and I'm just so tired from touch though I don't exactly do anything. Just so exhausted. Of myself and of messing up people and fighting and trying too hard and wanting to be happy too much it isn't even real. And I just don't want to lose faith. It feels like the only thing I have left. | | |
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"I wanna believe in it all again. Music and art, fate and love. And I wanna believe that I have made the right choices and that I'm on the right path, and there's still time to fix the mistakes I've made.
And I guess I want hope." - Peyton, OTH 5.13
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Alex: You never run out of chances, as long as you give yourself one.
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Millicent: You're happy, you're better, and I'm the screwed up one. Bravo Bitch.
Alex: Be as nasty as you want. Be me. Don't care. I'm staying because I love you and I'm not giving up on you.
Millicent: Stop being nice to me. Stop trying to help me. I said you were washed up and stupid and then you tried to kill yourself. I'm sorry.
Alex: That was my fault, giving up, because I thought it'd be easier. Is that what you're doing, giving up?
Millicent: I'm not as strong as you are, Alex.
Alex: I'm not strong, but I'm here. And so are you. And we're gonna get you back to your old self.
Millicent: I'm not sure I can get back there.
Alex: Yes you can. You just pick a place, and you start.
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It really is 2010 for real already. Orientation has been crazy great, but now it's time to start studying again and time is going by so fast, CTs are really coming soon :(
Meanwhile, 2010 has really seemed like a really crappy year so far. So many (bad) things have happened, and it's true people always leave.
Wish I knew what to do to stop screwing up friendships and relationships and stop fighting with people all the time. I honestly don't know what happened with us, I wish I knew what happened but I don't, and I'm too tired to fix things although you mean a lot to me. It's just really sudden and I'm not sure if it's fixable, but you were one person I got to know who really means a lot to me and I hate to see us become the way we are, and these past few weeks have been horrible. I really, really miss you. But I know I don't matter that much. Just wish things could get better.
Do hope touch gets better too, I really really think we can do this if we set our hearts and minds to it like we did last year <3
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